I feel like lately My poems have been Nothing Maybe because lately I’ve been so much better I felt real happiness My depression has lifted a little And my muse has gone away Perhaps now I must write about My mixed emotions For I don’t always feel this great And I don’t always feel this terrible I have a new muse But some how it’s different Or is it? I can’t tell

I miss creating masterpieces Ones I am very proud of But I only could create those Because of my depression So thank you I suppose I will compose Better poetry in the future When I have an ache in my heart Only poetry can express

The day I’ve been waiting for Has finally arived I’ve gotten rid of your shadow And your hold on my mind I’m free to be myself Without you in mind I have a new friendship One that this time won’t end You don’t haunt me I’ve been happy these past few days I’ve been sleeping well Without your dreams plaguing my brain I have new memories to hold on to A new life to begin A new story I get to start over

I don’t love you anymore I deny your control over my life You never loved me You tossed me away like trash While I treasured you like gold You hurt me I don’t forgive you

You’ll never control my dreams anymore I’m not obsessed anymore I’m not in love with you anymore I hate you

You ruined my life You turned me into this I would have chased you to the ends of the earth But chasing your ghost Turned me into one I don’t love you anymore

You never asked, but I love you My blood boils My shin crawls My body shakes My love is too strong It’s an obsession

You never asked, but I hate you My fist clenched My body recoils I hit you in your pretty little face It’s a fantasy

You never asked, but I’m broken I hate the way you make me feel Like a monster Like a creature Like a cannibal It’s true

You never asked, but I can’t do this anymore I hold up the knife I’m too weak to do it I’m too tired to try Depression grasps my soul It’s devastating

You never asked Anything Because you never Cared

Can she hear me? Crying out? Begging her to put it down Put down the pill bottle Come outside Enjoy real life No Real like is awful I understand why she did it But couldn’t Just couldn’t I have seen her before it? The last time I saw her she was sitting on a couch She looked up at me and said stop crying We’ll see each other again How ever looking back We would not Ever see each other again This is real life Whether I like it or not People die that you love Whether you like it or not

Sometimes you must die, to live When i lept off that bridge Sometimes you must starve, to feel full When hunger consumed me But i refused to eat Sometimes you must kill to bring life When your nightmares come true

I’ve never felt so confused So out of place I’ve never felt so hungry For someone’s eyes Let me see Let me feel Let me be alive

I’ve never felt so useless Like a glitch in the matrix I shouldn’t be this way and yet here i am I’m confused For all that I am

Sometimes you must die to truly live

I’ve felt pretty good These past few days Scraping on like nothings wrong inside I found a new person to care about I’ve moved on right? The problem is she looks like you I didn’t do it on purpose i swear Blonde hair, blue eyes, 5’5 Pretty

I’ve felt pretty good These past few days Calling, texting, stalking When will i get over this Catching trains Running around like a maniac The image of her face stuck in my head I have to move on! How will i ever love If I’m stuck on one obsession

I’ve felt pretty good These past few days A gun to her head A knife in her side Blood flows Fresh meat Loosing my mind Tastes so good on my tongue Feels good on my skin Did i cross the line? Perhaps but rules were meant to be broken And lines where meant to be Crossed

(This might trigger people)

I bite the hand that feeds me So that maybe it’ll let me starve I find the one who seeks me And let them wander alone I sleep with one eye open Awaiting the monster underneath Ill let it eat me this time Ill fall intentionally Shattering bones into splinters All this will free me From the pain that goes on in my head Or maybe it will just make it all worse I try to stay clean I try to stay off the ledge Just to be met with rage and hurt You say no one understands you But I’ve been here all along

I cut to feel I cut to taste I cut to breathe I starve to be thin I starve to punish myself I live for you But you walked away My dreams tell me to let go My feelings are irrelevant to you Why can’t i let this go Why can’t i stay clean?

I can’t tell if this sucks or not let me know what i can fix in the comments please i know it doesn’t really rhyme lol

What’s this feeling?  Im hurting again My mind just spins and spins I see colors, I’m only seeing red I’m tired of all these voices in my head Tired of this body and soul This brain of mine What’s wrong with me?  Why can’t I reside?  Leave me alone let me be  I’m tired of you all ruining me Running me dry  Laughing at me I’m tired  So tired Of everything

Can you hear me? I’m the voice of reason telling you “don’t do it” Can you hear me? I’m the voice of peace telling you to put down the knife, to come to me Please hear me out Please start listening Can you hear it? The begging? The screaming? She’s gone move on! Leave her alone! Stop hurting yourself and trying her phone Can you hear me? I’m quiet but I’m here I’m whispering in your ear Don’t give into the temptation Don’t give in to the-

No I won’t listen Not anymore I’m tired of you knocking at my door I don’t care that you’re screaming I’ll do as I please And I’ll leave them pleading Pleading on the ground Where they should be Confused and upset Just like they made me They made me this way And probably you too I won’t listen to your voice Not to your tune I am the one who will be deciding The fate of my own life I’m residing So good bye angle on my shoulder I won’t be needing you any longer