I never thought this would be an issue
I’m counting calories
Looking in the mirror
Feeling unsafe with myself
Feeling like no one is hearing
I never thought I would try to starve myself
But here we are
I’m feeling sick
I’m sick of myself
I’m tired of my skin
And the pounds underneath
I look in the mirror
Feeling stupid
This is such a stupid thing
Why am I counting down days
I’m feeling lucid
M...
I’m leaving this insecurity
I’m leaving it behind
Im leaving my worries
Letting it drag behind
Oh my
Maybe I just can’t stand me
Maybe I’m not the person I wish that I was
I’ve left the old me,
That little kid on the slide
I miss that God fearing man
That I used to be
The strong and happy person
That I used to be
Now I’m a mess
I’ve been so stressed
You ruined my life I could say
But I did...
A child with a soft voice
She speaks of a better place
A place she used to live
Her small petite fame and round eyes
A man with a gruff voice
His beard overgrown
His eyes that have known
Much pain and sorrow
He sings quietly and says no more
They watch over me
Sit with me
Sometimes they take different forms
Killian
I named them all
All the same
Their red eyes watching
Connected to a shadow o...
Dancing in the rain
Splashing in puddles
Drooling in anticipation
Your pretty and I’m shy
But I'll watch from afar
If i could have you i’d wear your skin
Hold your hands
Taste your tongue
I have a knack for you not being intact
Ill cut you up and watch your guts go splat
Swinging in the rain
Stomping puddles
I’d follow you into hell
If I can, I'll follow you home as well
Just don't look my w...
Do I fit in a puzzle
Do I dangle with chimes?
Do I sit with dice
Am I a piece of something
Bigger then myself
Do I get to be the good guy
And really help myself?
Do I belong with other humans?
Should I be allowed to be called
Human
Do I belong?
Do I fit in a box
Or lay with the leaves
Do I sing with the birds
What am I?
Who am I?
Where do I belong?...
Miss freedom
Do you really exist
A wondering woman
Free to express
All the while I feel trapped
In chains of good and evil
Your oblivion hurts me
Your carelessness
Angers me
Miss freedom
Are you out there?
Combing your hair?
Never with a care
Your child is here
Could you acknowledge
Your son is all alone
While you run off
Talk to the crows
Miss freedom
Free me from my pain
Only you can do ...
Yellow roses are my favorite flower
She said
When I asked her why the answer
Didn’t matter in my head
They became my favorite flower as well
When I saw them I only thought of her
“Friendship” is what they meant
She told me as she smiled
Her eyes so blue and beaming
Yellow roses are my favorite flower
I won’t say again
Because when I look at them
They remind me of her
It’s a dread
I don’t want ...
Your not who you used to be
And neither am I
I’m not who you used to love
And neither are you
You don’t love me anymore
And I’m still stuck with this heart wrenching feeling
That never goes away
I’m not who I used to be
So I’ll watch you up and leave
Friends still? Not really
It was nice knowing you
I say as you leave...
I’m giving up again
I just want something that I can’t explain
Something hard to obtain
I feel unloveable
I feel crushed by the weight of all my sins
I feel like giving in
Somebody help me
I’m loosing my mind
This isn’t a poem
It’s a cry for help
Call the doctor
I’m a lie
Everything I am is just twisted into a smile
I feel unloveable
I feel uncontrollable
I feel useless and tired all the time
I...