I feel like lately

My poems have been

Nothing

Maybe because lately

I’ve been so much better

I felt real happiness

My depression has lifted a little

And my muse has gone away

Perhaps now I must write about

My mixed emotions

For I don’t always feel this great

And I don’t always feel this terrible

I have a new muse

But some how it’s different

Or is it?

I can’t tell

I miss creating masterpiec...

The day I’ve been waiting for

Has finally arived

I’ve gotten rid of your shadow

And your hold on my mind

I’m free to be myself

Without you in mind

I have a new friendship

One that this time won’t end

You don’t haunt me

I’ve been happy these past few days

I’ve been sleeping well

Without your dreams plaguing my brain

I have new memories to hold on to

A new life to begin

A new story

I get to start o...

I don’t love you anymore

I deny your control over my life

You never loved me

You tossed me away like trash

While I treasured you like gold

You hurt me

I don’t forgive you

You’ll never control my dreams anymore

I’m not obsessed anymore

I’m not in love with you anymore

I hate you

You ruined my life

You turned me into this

I would have chased you to the ends of the earth

But chasing your ghost

Tu...

You never asked, but I love you

My blood boils

My shin crawls

My body shakes

My love is too strong

It’s an obsession

You never asked, but I hate you

My fist clenched

My body recoils

I hit you in your pretty little face

It’s a fantasy

You never asked, but I’m broken

I hate the way you make me feel

Like a monster

Like a creature

Like a cannibal

It’s true

You never asked, but I can’t do thi...

Can she hear me?

Crying out?

Begging her to put it down

Put down the pill bottle

Come outside

Enjoy real life

No

Real like is awful

I understand why she did it

But couldn’t

Just couldn’t I have seen her before it?

The last time I saw her she was sitting on a couch

She looked up at me and said stop crying

We’ll see each other again

How ever looking back

We would not

Ever see each other again

T...

Sometimes you must die, to live

When i lept off that bridge

Sometimes you must starve, to feel full

When hunger consumed me

But i refused to eat

Sometimes you must kill to bring life

When your nightmares come true

I’ve never felt so confused

So out of place

I’ve never felt so hungry

For someone’s eyes

Let me see

Let me feel

Let me be alive

I’ve never felt so useless

Like a glitch in the m...

I’ve felt pretty good

These past few days

Scraping on like nothings wrong inside

I found a new person to care about

I’ve moved on right?

The problem is she looks like you

I didn’t do it on purpose i swear

Blonde hair, blue eyes, 5’5

Pretty

I’ve felt pretty good

These past few days

Calling, texting, stalking

When will i get over this

Catching trains

Running around like a maniac

The image of h...

(This might trigger people)

I bite the hand that feeds me

So that maybe it’ll let me starve

I find the one who seeks me

And let them wander alone

I sleep with one eye open

Awaiting the monster underneath

Ill let it eat me this time

Ill fall intentionally

Shattering bones into splinters

All this will free me

From the pain that goes on in my head

Or maybe it will just make it all worse

I try t...

What’s this feeling? 

Im hurting again

My mind just spins and spins

I see colors, I’m only seeing red

I’m tired of all these voices in my head

Tired of this body and soul

This brain of mine

What’s wrong with me? 

Why can’t I reside? 

Leave me alone let me be 

I’m tired of you all ruining me

Running me dry 

Laughing at me

I’m tired 

So tired

Of everything...

Can you hear me?

I’m the voice of reason telling you “don’t do it”

Can you hear me?

I’m the voice of peace telling you to put down the knife, to come to me

Please hear me out

Please start listening

Can you hear it?

The begging? The screaming?

She’s gone move on!

Leave her alone!

Stop hurting yourself and trying her phone

Can you hear me?

I’m quiet but I’m here

I’m whispering in your ear

Do...