You were a better friend than role model

I liked it though, it meant I could

Choose my bedtime

Eat junk

Drink

Bring questionable people over

I never knew much about you

You never opened up

Except with the aid of the bottle

Till that became more often than not

I didn’t like seeing that

So I kept distance

When you passed

I lost my best friend

I mourned for the father

The father you could be