it was supposed to be me i did everything right until i couldn’t when my older brother couldn’t i went to college, graduated with my degree when my younger sister couldn’t i lived without fear, became a leader when my younger brother couldn’t i expanded my view, studied gender, politics, art and anything i could get my hands on it was supposed to be me the shining jewel of my immigrant family, the one who did all my parents ever wanted i was gearing to be the favorite child but i didn’t know the crown could be so heavy things i loved became trouble and i lost my will the will to keep going and learning and become something worldly it was supposed to be me i’m supposed to be the one who did it all now i’m back to square one and i can’t even shower brush my teeth, sometimes eat i was supposed to be the favorite child but all i ever did was fall back to infancy