“if i knew you didn’t love me, i wouldn’t have done what i did”
god, it took my words and breath
i could hear you say, you didn’t want it to hurt
but it was too late, i had taken critical blows
we were supposed to be simple and now it’s so much more
i cried in the arms of my best friend that night
begging past me to just leave you alone
i didn’t know you would grow to love me so fast
i thought w...
sick in the middle of my bed
fever low and yet i was sweating
it was 3am and i thought of you
for years i thought of you
i was going to call you to bring me soup
let me smell you near me
let me feel your touch
soothe away the heat and cold
remove my blankets and just hold me
in your curative arms
run your hands down my back
lay in my sick and stay
in those years i thought of you
i thought of...
it never came when i wanted
ran by it’s own schedule
the one time i called it
it pat me on the shoulder
like i was nothing but a kid
“it’s not your time yet” it said
voice distorted and yet i understood
i would have to wait until it wanted to get me
and so i did, although rather impatiently
i tried to recreate my call to get it back here
i think it heard but chose to ignore
it left me waiting...
“where will you go” he asked
“i’m not sure, i’ll figure it out”
“just stay here”
“you know i can’t”
“i love you”
“i know but you lie”
“i won’t anymore, i promise”
she sighed “you promised yesterday and last week and last year, your word is nothing with the amount of times you’ve ran it into the ground, i’m leaving for me and when i stayed? that was just for you. i’m not waiting for you to h...
in their own way, each uniquely divine
the sun first caught my eye
bright eyes flaming with every grin
she burned me in way i couldn’t resist
with her warmth and embrace seared into my soul
i fell in love like never before
i thought i could tame her
how ridiculous it seems now
the idea of a mortal ever capturing her heart
she loved me in her own way
a ways away from my mundanity
she broke my heart...
we sit still, the dust creating halos around our heads
sometimes i turn just to look at your nose
just to remember if my mind changed what it looked like
the sun makes your hair look so vibrant, i think
you’re more beautiful than i remember
i look away, insecure and nervous about the lack of charge in the air
it’s too comfortable, too soft but that is also you
you were never afraid of not ...
love is the lie that keeps us alive
love says “you are my everything”
love drives you to the airport
5 in the morning, droopy with sleep
love helps you with your luggage
and gives you a kiss before watching you leave
love says “i understand you so well”
love supports your career
makes you lunch the night before work
love adds a note with a heart
and that extra snack you love
love says “i’ll neve...
to survive is to sleep, wake and eat
to eat at least twice each day
to sleep for hours on end
to survive is to take no risks
protect the body and mind
survival makes viciousness gentle
it’s all you can do to see another day
but to live
to live is to sing, dance and scream
to eat when you want something good
to sleep when you want to dream
to live is to take risks everyday
from saying hello to a ...
it was supposed to be me
i did everything right until i couldn’t
when my older brother couldn’t
i went to college, graduated with my degree
when my younger sister couldn’t
i lived without fear, became a leader
when my younger brother couldn’t
i expanded my view, studied gender, politics, art and anything i could get my hands on
it was supposed to be me
the shining jewel of my immigran...
she sits in a dark room
waiting for her chance to play
i locked her up because it hurt too much
to watch her hope and dream all day
she calls my name softly
like she knows me so well
i shut her out because she does
and i can’t stand that fact
one day i’ll come back to her
play and jump and sing with her
i swear i will be able to take care of us
like others couldn’t, didn’t when we were young
sh...
