I’m counting down the days …

Unsure what number day it is on this countdown…

Some days fast… some slow

Some easy…some hard

Some filled will tears…others filled with smiles

Day by day never knowing how much closer I am to day 1…

Day 1 usually signifies a beginning but on this countdown it’s the end…

When I lay my head on my pillow tonight and shut my eyes ..will I see the sun again ?

As I open my eyes…sun peeping through my shades

Will I see the the stars again?

Counting down the days…

Wanting to experience as much as I can before Day 1

Just counting down the days …

Sad for what could’ve been

In fear of what is to come

Happy for what was..is… has been

Waiting for the pain to end…

Counting down the days…