( not a birthday party but simply remembering someone important birthday)

Caught up in my sadness, my stress, my list of things to do, it was 11pm on December the 16th and I looked to see a group chat message on Snapchat. Thinking nothing of it, I open it as break for myself.

E: GUYS IM ALMOST 19!!

F: ONE MORE HOUR TILL YOU ARE LEGAL

F: YOU CAN BUY WEED

F: AND VAPE

A: Ahh the perks of being Canadian

I read the chats and blinked twice. I almost forgot that it was my best friends birthday. I didn’t even have a message ready. But it was the fact, I didn’t even know what day it was. I’ve been lost with every day that’s passed for the last couple of months that I wasn’t keeping track of the days… just if it was a weekday I had school… and if it was a weekend I had work. But how could I, miss the person who has supported me the most, day of birth and telling her happy birthday.

In 10 minutes of less, I made a paragraph of a mini birthday card through text, that I figured would suit well enough considering when I think of her so many words pile together. I’m not even sure if the sentences made sense I just know I said what was from the heart with the lacking function of my head.

I could have been the worst best friend ever if I had forgotten her birthday. I was just wrapping her birthday/Christmas present how did I forget about the birthday part… With no surprise she loved my message and never found out that I hadn’t remembered what day it had been.

But now I do.

And so does she.

And if she knows that I know now, is all that matters.