I left you, my safe haven Buried deep in a grave Beside all of those people And the love that they gave Thought I’d never deserve The kind words and the praise The palatial expanse Of your warm, loving gaze And that day in November, When I gifted my heart The abyss of despair Tore my conscience apart Unauspicious confession Refuted, confined ‘I don’t see you that way’ So I turned in, resigned To a lifestyle of loathing I would show you, I’d dare To dance boldly, and suffer How I prayed that you’d care A machine overrode me, Malignant and cruel Like that mistress of ballet She inflicted her rule Then the month of December, Turned bitter and bare, Felt devoid of all sense And I saw how they’d stare Never took to the stage Body aching and frail Left my passion behind me Danced to fly and to fail That night sky full of stars Appeared deadened and cold That place once felt like magic But it hurt to behold