time is ticking

My eyes are heavy

my suitcase is filling

Im getting ready

My husband lies in bed as I look at his beautiful face, I feel so guilty and regretful, as I push his soft hair.

I kiss his big forehead as I smell his strong cologne.

I feel very sad that I have to leave the love of my life that means everything to me.

He’s deserves so much better than me

He deserves a person who will be there for him and love him unconditionally, that will never hurt him,

Something I feel like I couldn’t do for him I tend to think this because I’m a timid person that lacks confidence in themselves.

He shouldn’t have to be dragged into my trauma and I should be able to do it on my own.

Tick the annoying, loud

and alarming thing that tells me it’s time to go and leave my old life behind,

I leave a note to tell him why I’m leaving so I can’t leave without giving him an explanation.

I love you but I have to go, I hope you can forgive me later on I

never wanted to leave you

but I won’t and can’t let you drag yourself into my problems,

I need to get better for you and myself, I’m leaving to get the help I really need,

I love you so much try and forget me so I don’t hurt you anymore, get a girlfriend start a new life without me…..

I’m going to ge better for you and myself I promise I love you I’m sorry,

I have to handle this on my own drown in my

“EMPTY SORROWS”