My heart fills with joy

As she makes her mark

Working so, so hard

To reach her goals

My heart aches

She did it.

I didn't.

I don't know how

Should I feel this way?

She was my friend

She _was_

And now she isn't

That should have been me

Me and not her

Why isn't it me?

It could've been me

She deserved it.

She earned it.

So why can't I be happy,

For what she has that I don't?