‘’Hey can we go out today’’ I said as I look nervously at Jack I fiddle with my hands waiting for his answer he looks at me with a smug smirk and says “Go fuck off Ava I have a thing too do with my friends” he says as he slaps me and walks away I stand there in shocked I couldn’t believe it I felt a fly of Anger and sadness wash over me and I walk off “Asshole what did I ever do too him” I walked ...

I’d be lying if I said that I was fine.

I lie every day.

So instead I ask how are you?

Is everything ok?

I try to read between every line.

To piece together every hidden crack.

Taking off my own bandaids.

To replace them on you.

And I’m left to bleed.

A colorful hurt.

of forgotten memories.

Finally turned grey.

How can I be there for you?

Without wounding me....

My hair falls neatly behind my ear , so much pressure ,pressure to be a picture girl .

Why shoes are marble swirl , I am the picture girl . Expected but not expecting. Scared but not surprised. They know nothing . I am the picture girl .

The camera blinds me everyday and people straining just to stare , at my brushed hair . Latest fashion , entered as a dare I never have worn and tear . Only nea...

I feel this and I feel that.

I just want an answer stat.

Up and down the hills I go.

I just want a steady flow.

A tug-of-war I can’t erase.

I just want to float to space.

My emotions shift, it’s the wildest tide.

I’m just trying to trust the waves inside.

Yet even in this tangled fight.

I’m always going to find the light....

Like the seconds,

After lightening strikes.

Before the,

Thunder clap.

Like the minutes,

Between us,

As we try to,

Break it.

Like the eternity,

We spent.

Side by side,

Knowing each other.

Like the forever,

We chose.

When we said,

‘I love you’

…

I love you 🖤...

we left memories here to die,

but i still remember the night

you told me about your mother,

about your birthday last year,

about the day your dog died.

the violence had already started

when you opened your mouth.

every wound was just as fresh

as the day i died.

but you—

you were so human to me

in those moments you acted as a nuisance.

and maybe your mom was right,

because you haven’t done anyt...

I regret to inform you

Began the letter stained with ink

How my heart became bitter

When you left me by the sink

My guilty thoughts are gone

So come back please

I have loved you all along

So where’d your luggage go

As you left you took all of your clothes

Now I’m wondering if you’ll ever come back home

I am happy to inform you

Began the letter stained with tears

How my heart no longer fears

Wh...

i’m scared

All the What Ifs

Are flying like birds

Around my racing heart

Life is a battle

Which I’m willing to win

But one thing I can’t do

Is stay strong without your love

I need you

I know it’s selfish

But the way we walk,

Flipping our hair,

Through the twisty path of life

Will forever leave me stunned

I want you to see that

I want you to smell

The purple daisies

Feel

The fluffy blankets

See ...

It’s so damn cold here in my soul.

No one knows the horror

I’ve known. I feel the darkness

coming, it’s cold. It’s taking

over this hole in my soul.

I see all the Tortured souls, so easily.

“They’re crying out ‘Save Me,’

Screaming inside, bleeding and

Dying.”

They now wander around alone

in a zombie-like state only to

Eventually fall into a deep black void.

Then disappear into the darkn...

I need help.

There, I said it.

I need help.

I thought I was okay.

I thought I might be able to make it.

I thought I was getting better.

But I’m not.

I see that now.

For months I’ve been getting worse and worse,

Brushing off the dark thoughts when they crept into my mind.

But I think I finally realized recently:

Suicidal thoughts aren’t normal.

It’s not normal to look into every mirror and say, “...