I didn’t know how to

Feel.

To be sad,

Or to be

Mad?

The things you said

Left my heart dead,

The names you called me

Were so cruel…

I was mad,

Angry,

Rage and fury

Taking over.

I wanted to scream at you,

But deep down, I knew,

My voice was sure to crack

With wretched sobs.

I was sad,

Hurt,

Pain and heartbreak

Taking over.

I wanted to cry,

But I knew you’d ask why

I was so weak,

So I pushed ...

This Music hums around me

Softly

But the rain creates a silence

That allow the beats to break through

Noah Kahan’s “Northern Attitude” blares through the speakers

My ears capture the words instantly

Is this my sign

My call to go home

But how can I go home

When this also feels like home

There is gratitude in every word that I write

For the person I have become

But the person I was

The...

‘’Hey can we go out today’’ I said as I look nervously at Jack I fiddle with my hands waiting for his answer he looks at me with a smug smirk and says “Go fuck off Ava I have a thing too do with my friends” he says as he slaps me and walks away I stand there in shocked I couldn’t believe it I felt a fly of Anger and sadness wash over me and I walk off “Asshole what did I ever do too him” I walked ...

I’d be lying if I said that I was fine.

I lie every day.

So instead I ask how are you?

Is everything ok?

I try to read between every line.

To piece together every hidden crack.

Taking off my own bandaids.

To replace them on you.

And I’m left to bleed.

A colorful hurt.

of forgotten memories.

Finally turned grey.

How can I be there for you?

Without wounding me....

My hair falls neatly behind my ear , so much pressure ,pressure to be a picture girl .

Why shoes are marble swirl , I am the picture girl . Expected but not expecting. Scared but not surprised. They know nothing . I am the picture girl .

The camera blinds me everyday and people straining just to stare , at my brushed hair . Latest fashion , entered as a dare I never have worn and tear . Only nea...

I feel this and I feel that.

I just want an answer stat.

Up and down the hills I go.

I just want a steady flow.

A tug-of-war I can’t erase.

I just want to float to space.

My emotions shift, it’s the wildest tide.

I’m just trying to trust the waves inside.

Yet even in this tangled fight.

I’m always going to find the light....

Like the seconds,

After lightening strikes.

Before the,

Thunder clap.

Like the minutes,

Between us,

As we try to,

Break it.

Like the eternity,

We spent.

Side by side,

Knowing each other.

Like the forever,

We chose.

When we said,

‘I love you’

…

I love you 🖤...

we left memories here to die,

but i still remember the night

you told me about your mother,

about your birthday last year,

about the day your dog died.

the violence had already started

when you opened your mouth.

every wound was just as fresh

as the day i died.

but you—

you were so human to me

in those moments you acted as a nuisance.

and maybe your mom was right,

because you haven’t done anyt...

I regret to inform you

Began the letter stained with ink

How my heart became bitter

When you left me by the sink

My guilty thoughts are gone

So come back please

I have loved you all along

So where’d your luggage go

As you left you took all of your clothes

Now I’m wondering if you’ll ever come back home

I am happy to inform you

Began the letter stained with tears

How my heart no longer fears

Wh...

i’m scared

All the What Ifs

Are flying like birds

Around my racing heart

Life is a battle

Which I’m willing to win

But one thing I can’t do

Is stay strong without your love

I need you

I know it’s selfish

But the way we walk,

Flipping our hair,

Through the twisty path of life

Will forever leave me stunned

I want you to see that

I want you to smell

The purple daisies

Feel

The fluffy blankets

See ...