I wish I had never let go… Im sitting at her grave again. I’m here to lay with her My Julie My mom caught us laying together when she was still here She screamed and yelled about how sinful two girls being together was She might have been right I didn’t want her to be right I loved my Julie I didn’t see Julie that much after that We would sneak out to see each other occasionally “We should run away” she whispered I giggled Where would we go? She didn’t know Just far away I lit the first cigarette in my new pack I felt the heat in my lungs And breathed out. I let Julie have the rest I looked at her She had olive skin Her hair was like pink strawberries She had freckles all over her face They were like stars But it was her eyes I was in love with They were pale blue They sparkled “I miss you” I missed her. I wish I could sneak out every night And we did our entire junior year We went to parks 24 hour diners I even snuck into her house a few times She would lock the door so we could just lay there We wouldn’t have to worry about anything I could just love her I wish this was enough But It’s not I’ll wait Junior years goes by “I miss you” She told me this for the millionth time I couldn’t help that our parents didn’t want us together I felt a sting of anger at her saying she missed me Like we didn’t see each other? Our light had faded I was tired of lying to my parents When I went home, I put on my cross necklace My mom was right I couldn’t be with her It was wrong I prayed to find a boy I could love like I loved Julie This boy started going to school He had pink strawberry hair Olive skin Freckles They looked like the stars He had brown eyes They were so dark they almost looked black We sat in math together We talked It was mostly boring things like the weather He wore a cross necklace We started eating lunch together I usually stared at Julie He would stare at this boy who always read romance novels Me and brown eyes started dating summer after junior year ended Senior year started I had three Cs and several Bs I would hide in the bathroom to escape my grades I found Julie My Julie A cigarette in one hand and a blade in the other My baby I wanted to hold her But I couldn’t I walked away Graduation came a little faster than I wanted it to I wasn’t going to college I just wanted to move away Brown eyes proposed I thought about it I didn’t have a good reason to say no Besides the fact that I was in love with Julie And he was in love with the boy with books We just wanted to make our parents happy So I said yes We moved far away It was 2 in the morning when my mom called My baby My Julie Took to many pills last night And she had left me a letter That she didn’t want to be with anyone but me And a life without me wasn’t worth living… So here again I sit at her grave. Wishing that I would have clung to her. The tears stream down my face I couldn’t go on this is to much I was back again in my bed. It was late At least 2 in the morning Brown eyes had fallen asleep a while ago I cling to a picture of Julie My Julie Like this is going to bring her back I should have ran away while I could have Instead I let go