They say that only

the good die young,

I guess I’ll live forever.

I’ve been trying for forever

to get a little better.

I’ve been lying for a while,

I untether.

I’ve been dead inside for years

riding the surging tides of

all this stormy weather.

I confess that I’m a

monster hurting innocents.

In a sense I think if I

would die that you could mend.

Worth mentioning that I’m

still dying trying to make amends.

I said that last line to my demons,

now we’re good ol’ friends.

I’m glad you see right through

the lies and through my ignorance.

I doubt I’ll ever see the light again

• no recompense.

You have no tolerance for me -

and I don’t want you to.

Why should you let a beast like

me lay next to you?

This ain’t a petting zoo.

I hate the half of me that’s empty

• full of apathy.

He hates the other half that

tries and tries to make you happy.

I hope you sleep well tonight,

my love,

and have sweet dreams.

I’ll be in the doghouse - ignore the screaming and the laughing.