We’re friends

I think

I hope

I dream

You said to me

I could tell you anything

There was never a wrong time

But did you mean these words

Or are they simply a joke

To be honest

I like you

But just as a friend

And yet the idea that you might not want me

Hurts like I love you as more

I don’t, I can’t, I won’t

You and me

D and M

Aren’t something that should exist

I write stories

Using my initial and yours

I created a book

But not with our story

I used a D and I used an M

Because I wanted it to be us

I begged myself to change the names

To let this story go

To let other names be the right ones

But I couldn’t

I wanted it to be us so bad

That I couldn’t change anything

So I kept the names

And in doing that

I think I was trying to tell myself that I want you

Not like I _want_ you

I just want a friend

But no one else caught my attention

Besides you

So can you tell me

If me doing this

Wanting us

Wanting you

Writing D and M

And trying

Was worth it?