playfully, i feel as he touches my thighs and lifts off my shirt but you dont want to he hovers over you you enjoy it but but you dont want to you see the smile it brings you see the love you receive beforehand this window, i let it open i endure the cold, hard pain of his wind gusts i feel so powerful sometimes i feel i can move things with my eyes this window however is not in my control you want to be loved and comforted and feel no regret are you too young for this? is this why its a sin? are you scared of him? hes your lover but you regret pleasing him why? are you okay or would someone tell you that your not if you told the truth why cant you tell him why are you scared why dont you want it, everyone else does you feel yourself faking your emotions during sacred moments you regret it all i want to like it i want to want to his body full of warmth so warm it stings as i freeze, i open his window and let it happen i help him cool down while my body crystallizes still i lay thinking about what God is thinking of me while he has no other thought but “cooling down” but i want to be able to close the window when i get too cold.