You were all I ever wanted

You were the sun and moon

The clouds and the stars

You were everything that made my head spin and the earth revolve

Your early morning kisses

Would awaken me from my dreams

That’s what I told myself

As I went to sleep

Your little heartfelt notes

Would make me feel loved

An unfamiliar feeling

That I knew would be enough

But you never came

With my early morning kisses

Or my heartfelt notes

Or the feeling of being loved

You were just a picture

That I painted in my head

Nothing like the horror

With whom I shared a bed

Your scattered pill capsules

And thrown glass bottles

Haunt my nightmares and daydreams

Your shirt smelt like cigarettes

Instead of cologne

Your love was bipolar

Two-faced and addictive

I always expected things to get better

Until that autumn night

When everything got worse than a fight

Calling the police stark naked

Violated and vile

My body shuddered with each gasping breath

Blood on my skin

Dripping from my head

I wonder if you’re still behind bars

I wonder if your sentence is up

I wonder if you found someone else to love

I wonder why I still wonder

When I told myself that day

That as you went to prison

You were taking my trauma away