Bear with me as I post random stuff from months ago because I’m trying to clear my drafts out :/ (I have over a 100)
Bear with me as I post random stuff from months ago because I’m trying to clear my drafts out :/ (I have over a 100)
I was just trying to be what you wanted
Call me inferior
All I was, was exploited
A child amongst children
Innocent and benign
Chasing after someone
That never cherished my life
All I wanted
Was to make you proud,
To be in your good graces
But your cruelty abounds
You never even wanted me to
See the light of life
I’m sure you’re astonished
I’m still standing here just fine...
I think I just met the happiest person in the world
And she’s driving me crazy.
I’m a hardcore, brooding poet
Not someone who smiles at babies
She’s fun and lovely
I’m messed up and lonely
She likes Justin Bieber
I’m hung up on NF
She likes springtime
I like fall
She loves sunshine
I love raindrops
She’s a sweetheart
I’m an addict
But she’s my best friend
And she’s all that I have...
The wind doesn’t slap my cheeks anymore. It whistles through my hair.
It sings me a soft song.
Not sad, but fair.
The sky doesn’t loom over me anymore.
It stands right in its place
It’s smiling down upon me
With it’s big wide blue embrace
The sun doesn’t glare at me anymore
It warms me so gently
It’s rays just barely brush my skin
They make me start to think
Is this what it means to be free?...
Sleep
Is not just for rest
It is an escape
From my reality
From the pain I’ve suppressed
And the tears held within me
Living
Can be hard
Life is a bastard
And love is almost as bastardly
When you think they’re going well
They drop you into a living hell
Dreams
Can feel like floating on clouds
Or running through chaos
Or laughing out loud
It all depends on how your brain feels
And how the nigh...
Belonging
Where do I belong?
I don’t know to be honest
I’m every where at once
I’m the smart kid
With popular friends
I know weird people
And nice young men
I’m a pastor’s kid
And a poet’s daughter
And I believe
In a heavenly father
I’m every where at once
So I don’t really fit in
But that’s fine by me
It makes me different...
“Just get over it”
Just get over it?
Man, wish I’d thought of that first.
Wish I thought of it before the drugs and the hearse
Wish I thought of it before writing this verse
Wish I thought of it before I checked if it’d work
Dang
So it’s really that easy?
Just wake up one day and choose to be happy?
I’ve tried.
Really, I’ve tried and I’ve tried
Nothing really works
No matter how long I seem fi...
Do you think the sun gets lonely up there?
Of course he does,
that hydrogen sphere
If you still feel lonely with eight billion people,
He’s sure to feel sad up on his steeple
A burning star
That shines so bright
It incinerates all
That hug too tight
But surely he must need a hug now and again
For truly every star needs a friend...
I h a d a n e p i p h a n y
I realized who I am and why I’m so quiet
I h a d a n e p i p h a n y
I woke up and heard the shouts and the violence
I h a d a n e p i p h a n y
I opened my eyes to see I was a nihilist
I h a d a n e p i p h a n y
I understood why everyone’s lives are like this
I h a d a n e p i p h a n y
But when will the world
Have one too?...