what do you want me to say?

that i was wrong or that you were right?

you made me think that the worst was going to happen.

you caused my eyes to explode with water, my legs to twitch with fear, and my hands to tremble with anxiety, with you coursing through me.

it wasn’t my fault that i let this continue, or was it my fault?

if i understood what was happening, would i have swam up and out of the water to stop drowning?

you filled my lungs with toxins and held my throat to choke me, you didn’t even let me get a single breeze of air fly down my throat.

i wasn’t given the chance to let the air eliminate the toxins you imprinted inside me.

anxiety, why did you have to kill me from within?

why did you have to put thoughts inside my head that weren’t true?

why did you have to hold me under water until i drowned and gave into you?

what did i ever do to you?

tell me anxiety, what did i do?

(this was an interpretation about a dream i had. i was trapped under ice and was drowning. i started freaking out and anxiety made me think the worst but then i woke up.)