Space is a vacuum; I’d guess it would feel like nothing

But it doesn’t feel like nothing

It feels like ocean

Vast, deep

I am a wave

Forming far away from the shore

And instead of crashing,

I retreat again, slowly.

I’ve been here before

It’s good to be back

I feel both lost and as if I’ve finally found my path

Peace, peace

I smile into the abyss

Trying to savor it

Not willing to admit it

But the open space is the only place that feels like home to me.

I breathe the nothing

It tastes like salt

I sink without drowning and float without falling

Wait, heal

I allow myself to relax

My heart no longer aches

My skin feels like my own

In space, day and night are one, as love and loss are too.

I sink into the ocean, I float above the stars

And as I absorb the salt and sleep, I feel my scars begin to heal.