Why do I place my life in your incapable hands?

Giving you all my power and life force energy,

handing over my divine power and sacred sanctum,

Like I have no control of myself,

I hand myself over to you giving you control over me,

My mind, my heart, my soul, my body

when all you do is disappear like sand,

When you do, I fail to harness and retrieve my own being,

Often lost in displacing my own self wandering in a mysterious fantasy land,

Longing for a world of me and you...

Lost in a memory of love, lust and desire,

My mind escape every worldly hour,

Sinking in to the depths of frustration around my want and need for you..

Still you don't see me...

I stay gripped by the feelings of love and dwindle fast in to a dark hole of nothing and darkness,

In my missing and longing and want for you,

Like a trapped bird in a cage, longing to escape the mental prison,

Wishing for the feelings to just go away one day so I can set my self free,

Yet I still can't let you go, even though you are not here,

You still consume and dictate my every hour,

I wish I could recover my life from your hands,

Even though you don't know I handed it to you, and your just as fickle as sand,

I wish I could reclaim myself from the trenches of your love.

I wish I could take my life back in to my own hands.