My feet are clinging to the ice

Every step harder than the last

Only a little further

Till i’m there

Til I’m home

The cold is biting

at my ears

nose

eyes

Every inhalation

A fight

That i’m not winning

But Only a little further

Till i’m there

Til I’m home

Heading towards the center

The cracks at my feet leading me

Cold air billows from my lungs

Making another cloud in front of me

I’m trembling

And the tears streaking down my face are

Thick and frozen

Only a little further

Till i’m there

Til I’m home

I’m almost at the center

Almost to you

Almost to your open arms

I see it then

The hole in the ice

The cracks surrounding it

Only a little further

Til I’m home

I take one step then another

Flashbacks bombarding me if a cold night like this

weeks ago

You didn’t choose your fate

But i’m choosing mine

I strip off my jacket first

then my gloves

hat

boots

shirt

socks

pants

Folding all of them neatly by the side

By skin is prickly with goose bumps

Purple with the cold

I can almost feel you over me

wrapping me in your arms

But your not there yet

Not yet

Only a little further

Til I’m home

I dip my toes in

The cold is paralyzing

I can do this

You’re waiting

And i love you

I slip in

Letting the dark water envelope my body

take me down down

down

down

I’m coming

Love me

And make me feel warm again

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kind of a long one sorry 😅