People are talking

Inside my head

Screaming

Screaming

Screaming

I can’t hear myself think

And yet the doctors say it’s fine

It’s a figment of my imagination

Thoughts are pouncing in every conversation every thing I say every interaction i have with anyone

And yet

The doctors say i’m fine

My legs and arms keep shaking

Chaos to keep the calm

always moving to stay still for you

The do...

My feet are clinging to the ice

Every step harder than the last

Only a little further

Till i’m there

Til I’m home

The cold is biting

at my ears

nose

eyes

Every inhalation

A fight

That i’m not winning

But Only a little further

Till i’m there

Til I’m home

Heading towards the center

The cracks at my feet leading me

Cold air billows from my lungs

Making another cloud in front of ...

Help

Help

Help

Help

Help

Help

There’s no air

I’m stuck

Suffocating

Forced to be here

As by lungs

Burst

And bruise

Trying to cling to

air

life

all of the above

My head it touching the cool metal as i’m pushed against it

I try to focus

As my whole body screams

Help

Please

please ple...

The balance between

good and bad

The fight between

caring and uncaring

A choice defining us

A moment in time

A grade

An action

All small in the scheme of things

But they mean so much

Be careful

Ever so careful

What you do on a

day to day

hour to hour

minute to minute

second to second

Everything adds up

Creating who you are

You look back and everything’s changed

Becau...

And i love

And i run

And i hide

And I hunger

And i cry

And i move

And i hate

And i adore

And i weep

For this life was not made for someone like me

I choose to listen

And to obey

Chasing fleeting moments

Where happiness is mine, only to decay

The big picture is getting smaller

And my life is moving on

And i keep feeling these emotions

Why is it such a con?

Hurting me

Leaving me...

So I got this idea from a really good book called Dreamland by Sarah Dessen. I just finished it and it was really good, would recommend, look at the trigger warnings first tho

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So I have something tell you…

So there’s this…

And another…

And he…

I need..

So here’s the thing…

So

so

so

um…

I don’t know if i can say

what i’m trying to say

Can you just know?

please

Noti...

Power comes from influence

Influence over everything

The connections you have

The people you know

And the higher you get

The more power you have

The more influence you possess

The higher you get

The higher you get

The higher you get

Til your dealing with entities

Dealing with people so high above where you used to be

that you go back to old ways

cowering

when they enter a room.

...

Most people understand hunger

as a lack of food

Of an emptiness

A hole inside you you long to fill

But it’s not

It’s a constant clawing

Digging deep

always

Ripping flesh

Tearing me apart

second

by

ticking

second

It’s not empty

It’s full

full of pain

and suffering

Something that will never never end

Even if i get out of this place

I will always be hungry

Always be dying...

Relief or an ending?

Is it over?

Or just beginning?

Can we even say the storm is over?

When the effects haunt us

every second

of every minute

of every day

I’m not saying

That it’s not gone

The worst of it is in the past

But the future doesn’t look brighter

Will any of this last?

We put ourselves together

Just for another storm to hit

And wreck all of our progress

I don’t...

I don’t know if i can do this anymore

constantly wondering

Watching every person around me fade into oblivion

i don’t think i can

I’ll take the same syringe use daily

stick it into myself

Stop my own heartbeat as i’ve seen people do over and over and over

I’m lost

Im gone

I’m done

I think this is the end of the rope

I’ll meet you in the stars people

You were just preparing the ...