Not The Prompt

I’m tired

Exhausted

Spent

I don’t know how much longer I can do this

People look at me with pitying stares

I try to tell them this isn’t who I really am

I’m just tired

So tired

I shouldn’t really

make

decisions

while i’m

so tired

I’m not thinking straight

But there’s a knife on the table

A knife on the table

_A knife on the table _

__

And i’m so tired

I just want ...

I wish I could believe

I look around see people

happy

filled with something bigger than themselves

they see their purpose

they know they are loved unconditionally

I want a love like that, that flows constantly

someone who will always accept me

who knows me better than i know myself

I want someone who has a plan

who knows what happens

who had the answers

_I want to believe _

__

please ...

I know it when all of a sudden your face turns as creased and pale as ash.

I know it when blood spirts from your abdomen.

I know when you crumple and you lay limp.

I know when you scream

And scream

And scream

And at some point I wonder if I will ever get the sound out of my mind

I won’t.

So when I reach you

When I fall to the ground,

With tears already blurring my vision

I already k...

It’s not really contentment.

Well I don’t think it is anyway.

It’s not that i’m fine with what i have,

It’s that i understand that i don’t need more

I don’t deserve more

It’s not really that i’m greedy

That i want more constantly

It’s more like I’m hungry

starving

That I will always need more

It’s not really that I’m lazy

Never doing more than I need to

Just living a life that will pa...

The world is burning.

It is a constant light

a constant brightness

The floor around me is on fire with the suns rays

I am frozen by the light

by the beauty

by the dazzling, sparkling way it reflects off of everything

But slowly

slowly

the sun sinks

leaving a cold mourning behind

an emptiness

I reach for the small tendrils of light left that are slowly dancing away

But they are gon...

You never sleep.

And when you do you wake up all the time.

You leave the house at 5:30 every morning just to watch the world wake up.

You only drink water with lemons.

You can never handle blankets while sleeping

So instead you only sleep with sheets

Your favorite color is green

You hate the blandness of life and are always searching for something new.

You hate tomatoes but like thin...

⚫️Not the prompt ⚫️

When people die

they leave things behind

making you believe that it’s only a matter of time before they come back

That their not really gone

just missing

A pack of cigarettes taped to the underside of a dresser after he promised he would quit

A stack of unopened mail just waiting to be opened by his careful hands

A knife left out from the last time he made a meal f...

I made a mistake.

I know I did.

Everyone knows.

I try to explain, to make excuses

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I didn’t think

You never think about anything

I never think about anything

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

You tell me it’s ok

that we will get passed it

together

But it’s not ok and it won’t be

Never again.

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I’m sorry...

I know

I know

I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

PLEASE

pl...

Do you belive in love that is unconditional?

Love that will surpass any adversity

and come back from any fight with its hand in the air in victory

and a grin on its

face

and though it is battered

and bleeding

you know that it is still there

to keep fighting

Do you believe that no matter what it will be there

to hold your hand

to be a shoulder to cry on

to be the person you could tell

...