Border

So thin

I could jump

The division between us

Seperating our souls and bodies

Yet my heart gravitates to you

You still will not let me in

I could come in but is worth it

No, I do not want to break your trust.mmmv

It is hard to fight this relentless urge to love

But I stay back, behind the border, behind the severing line.

Seeing others come and go while I cry in agony and jelousy

I shouldnt be jelous because you dont love me back but I am.

I fight the thoughts and urges to find you and love you but no.

I stay in my space, where the walls just keep getting smaller and smaller.

I cant breathe anymore, I cant see anymore, I cant feel anymore, Im trapped here.

I hear you laugh, I hear you love, but still not to me, I cant take it.

I hope you can hear my cries, I hope you can hear my screams, I hope you do

I wish you would love me, I wish you would care, But you dont and its ok.

So I stop crying, and I start seeing, and the walls dont close in any more

I shut the door, that could lead me to you, and move on from you

I pack my bags, and I go outside, and I find someone who cares.

He loves me for me, and loves no one else, He really cares

He builds me up, doesn’t knock me down, And I love it

I dont think about you, anymore, Not for a long time

I wish for it to stay that way for ever

But we saw you today out at the store

But you looked so confused and rather angry

So i said, Look whoes jealous now

And you walked away, What ever.

I really didnt even care

I need to say

One one thing

To you

Goodbye

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