The feeling has returned,

The nostalgic dread again weighs me down,

And I am drowning

d

  r

    o

       w

          i

           n

           g. 

I cannot reach above, nor do I want to.

I will sink in this darkness,

Let the pain fill my lungs.

I wish I could forget this feeling;

I wish it never returned.

But, alas, I must endure it again, only this time I will not hope that happiness will ever return.