
Margaret Sok
I fear writing is all that can cure the emptiness of my heart

Margaret Sok
I fear writing is all that can cure the emptiness of my heart
I could really go for some chocolate cake. I look at the shiny brass key lying in my hands that has a slice of cake engraved on it. “Yep, cake time,” I whisper to myself as I unlock the door to a bakery. I scan the cakes in the case and find my chocolate cake. I enjoy it with a cup of tea.
How can life grow from the ground of blood?
My steps are stained With crimson red blood. The air is filled with Sweet scents of rose bud.
Tragedy was here, Death in its presence. Yet the rose bushes flourish Despite darkness’s essence.
Through the path built on blood I walk to find green grass again. Tragedy never lasts forever, But beauty of roses grows time and time again.
The star was falling with grace, silver spurs and light purple sparkles emitting from its beauty. My eyes were hypnotized by the sight, wanting to capture it and keep it forever. It was a beautiful disaster.
Fear was the first thing to strike me. Why was the star falling? Did space decide to kick it out? My chest was beating harshly as my breath was getting heavier. Surely the star would crash into earth and blow us into oblivion. We were all going to be dead in minutes.
I didn’t know what was in the sky, but it was strange. It reminded me of the light hues of the sky just before sunset; light purples and blues. I wondered what it would be like to touch the colors. As close as it was getting, maybe I would be able to.
I hear the door slam shut, alarming me. I wake from my slumber and head towards the door. The cold wind still settles in the doorway. Unable to find Edwen, I climb the sofa and look out the window. I see a glowing lantern in the distance; large footsteps in the deep snow. Edwen has left me. But why? It is not yet sunrise. I sneak through the small dog-door designed just me and feel the sudden nipping cold wind pierce my fur. I trudge through the deep snow. Edwen could be in trouble. I must protect him. I follow his scent, my nose finding comfort in his vanilla and cashmere scent. I spot the glowing lantern and find a place behind a nearby tree as I assess my situation. Edwen sets his lantern down and sits inside a large circle made of ash. He calls upon darkness and begs for power. A eerie, screeching noise ruptures my sensitive ears. I hold back a whine. Small tears form at my eyes as I see my beloved owner seeking evilness. How could he? How could he be so cruel! My heart breaks at his betrayal as I run from him in search for a new home. I will not reside with evilness.
It’s impossibly ugly, this sweater, But I wear it each week, No matter the weather, So that he’ll see me.
He complimented me once On the reddish tint of the wool. He smiled at me As if I were a beauty.
But ever since, He hasn’t noticed my soul. But I won’t give up, I want him to see me.
So every week I will Stand out in my ugly sweater Hoping he’ll find me And speak once more.
“You’re kidding,” I blurt, looking at the giant tortoise the size of a horse. “In this economy, I cannot afford a horse,” Jack says, patting the giant shell of the tortoise. It groans in response. “So you buy a giant tortoise instead!” I scream. There is no way we’re getting home until after nightfall. Jack holds up his hands. “Hey, he was cheap. And it’s better than walking.” “It’s slower than walking.” I shake my head in aggravation. The tortoise snaps at me. “He didn’t like that,” Jack laughs. Clearly.
I roll my eyes as we slowly move down the trail. The tortoise’s shell is warm and rough. Jack talks to the tortoise, telling him about his great adventures. It’s sunset and we haven’t even left the village. It’s going to be a long ride.
I tighten my armor as I again face the blue dragon, its amber eyes glaring at me. “I will ride you!” I shout, wiping the mud from my pants. “Have you tried asking?” The dragon growls. I slack my arms, a bit embarrassed that the thought hadn’t occurred. “May I please ride you…uh what’s your name?” I say, gently. “Seraphine, and I’ll allow you a ride if you tell me your secret,” she whispers, her eyes suddenly intrigued by me. “Secret?” She walks closer, her long talons gripping the mud beneath her. “I know you hold a secret, one that holds you down. I can smell it.” I gulp. Do I really need to explain myself to a dragon? “Yes, you do,” Seraphine says, her voice thundering in my head. I sigh. I walk reluctantly to a nearby rock and seat myself. Seraphine lies beside me, awaiting my story. “The one person I loved with my whole heart died a month ago. He was killed. Ever since, a gapping hole lies in my heart. I tried filling it with everything…nothing soothes the pain.” Tears prickle at my eyes. “I just want to be complete, not perfect. I just want that hole to seal so I can have a heart again.” Seraphine looks at me with a hint of sorrow. “I too lost my companion. But I think I know how to heal. You may ride me, Celia, but in return I desire your friendship.” I bow my head before her. “You may take anyhting, friend.”
We rocket into the sky, Seraphine’s blue wings beating against the wind. I let out a loose cry and we sail over mountains and trees. Friends we became.
The words bounce off, Gifting me with complete silence. “When will I speak again?” I think. “Never,” I assure.
Everything repels me, People, the wind, rain, and comfort; The only thing that I cannot hide from Is the piercing, heavy feelings of loneliness.
I try to pop my bubble, But my nails aren’t sharp enough, My limbs far too weak From deprivation of joy.
I am stuck in a bubble, One I created myself.