He wouldn’t let me cry

He didn’t like it

Made him uncomfortable

Those were the times I really wanted to

And now that he is gone

It’s like I don’t have anything else to cry about

Other than him

The memories

Its like my tears are tied to them

But now that I have left

I won’t let him have my tears

I’ll scream his name into my pillow

I’ll swear to the dark night sky

I’ll let them threaten the edges of my eyes

But I will not let them spill

He has already emptied my heart

So he doesn’t get any more of me

I will carry the pieces along with the tears

I might throw them into the deeps of the ocean

Drown with them

Maybe then it will be easier

Tears can’t be shed there

It will be a relief