I trust you with my faith With my life I trust that you know best I trust that you see the things I don’t The bigger picture

I pray for good days and good memories I pray for lessons and challenges But I don’t pray for trauma I don’t pray for a broken heart I don’t pray to be stopped on the street by creeps I don’t pray for prying hands or and stolen touches I don’t pray to have the same bad things happen again and again So why do they

I ask you to show me the lesson in it all I ask you what I am doing wrong I tell you i trust you So please teach me how to escape this But you let it play on repeat Shattering my trust in you

He wouldn’t let me cry He didn’t like it Made him uncomfortable Those were the times I really wanted to And now that he is gone It’s like I don’t have anything else to cry about Other than him The memories Its like my tears are tied to them But now that I have left I won’t let him have my tears I’ll scream his name into my pillow I’ll swear to the dark night sky I’ll let them threaten the edges of my eyes But I will not let them spill He has already emptied my heart So he doesn’t get any more of me I will carry the pieces along with the tears I might throw them into the deeps of the ocean Drown with them Maybe then it will be easier Tears can’t be shed there It will be a relief