I feel your eyes.

I feel you watching.

I know you’re there.

I know you’re disappointed.

I hear you sighing.

I hear you scolding.

I feel your gaze.

I feel your attention.

I know you hate me.

I know you’re angry.

I hear you screaming.

I hear you yelling.

I feel your stare.

I feel your fear.

I know you’re hurting

I know you blame me.

I hear you crying.

I hear you breaking.

So why can I not see you?

Why are you there,

Yet I can never really know you?

I feel everything I’ve done to you,

Yet you never tell me what to fix.

Where are you?

Why can I not get you back?

I want you back.

You were happy and kind,

And now I’ve killed you.

Your blood is on my hands.

This is all my fault.

I killed you,

But you still haunt me.

Old me,

Where are you?