I tried

to tread lightly

to watch my words

to stow away my emotions

to ignore the cracks forming beneath me

to sore my lips with endless smiles

to ignore the scars racing up my skin

the thread of denial wound tightly around my heart

squeezing

squeezing

squeezing

until all the blood of truth eventually spilled out

until the cracks turned to shatters

my bleeding body left

under the merciless rain

as they watched

from the safety of the shade

nobody risking themselves to run through

forgetting my kindness

my grace

my patience

the blood turned to fire

scorching me with betrayal

and all that was left was an aching

why?