Don’t apologise to me , like you understand what you did. You only said sorry to ease your own conscience

‘ I’m working on being a better person ‘ you said

And I stupidly replied ‘ I’m happy for you ‘

Because yes I am , it’d light my heart to hear your happy.

But your not , and neither am I

“It’s good that your not forgetting about your mistakes like a lot of people do “ I said

But I’m the mistake .

And pretending you don’t exist to pause my pain won’t work .

That’s why I’ll always reply to you

Fuck me. I was left in the storm after you cast a sunny spell over me . I wrote a poem for you months after you’d gone

‘my head is your home , your always in it‘

Your always in my hopes and dreams and that’s why I only let myself have nightmares.

I’m soo happy you apologised to me but only because I want you to feel better for hurting me .

I’m still hurt and aching .

“Goodbye for now” is what we said to each other.

We’ve still got hope , unfortunately