Don’t apologise to me , like you understand what you did. You only said sorry to ease your own conscience ‘ I’m working on being a better person ‘ you said And I stupidly replied ‘ I’m happy for you ‘ Because yes I am , it’d light my heart to hear your happy. But your not , and neither am I “It’s good that your not forgetting about your mistakes like a lot of people do “ I said But I’m the mistake . And pretending you don’t exist to pause my pain won’t work . That’s why I’ll always reply to you Fuck me. I was left in the storm after you cast a sunny spell over me . I wrote a poem for you months after you’d gone ‘my head is your home , your always in it‘ Your always in my hopes and dreams and that’s why I only let myself have nightmares. I’m soo happy you apologised to me but only because I want you to feel better for hurting me . I’m still hurt and aching . “Goodbye for now” is what we said to each other. We’ve still got hope , unfortunately