i cared.

i cared about you

and about us.

i cared about holding your hand

and walking with you in the halls

i cared about talking to you after my day

and hearing about your dog

i cared about you.

i cared about knowing your favorite color

and your dream career

i cared about who you wanted to become

and all your silly jokes.

i didn’t care about me.

i didn’t care about getting enough sleep

or how you neglected my answer to speak

i didn’t care about focusing on myself

or all the things i wanted to do

because i only cared about you.

and i only cared about us.

so now i can’t care about us.

i can’t care about my hand without yours

or walking alone to classes

i can’t care about talking to my friends instead

and spending time with my cat

i can’t care about you.

i can’t care about what you want

or hanging out with you on the weekends

i can’t care about your smile

or your stupid ocean eyes.

i have to care about me.

i have to care about taking time for just me

and reading my comfort books

i have to care about listening to music

and learning to love my myself