My heart was still in my throat from when I got the call . The call that I would never forget. The call that told me you weren’t coming back … and as I sit here waiting I still can’t fully grasp it . Have you ever just shut down to the point where nothing makes any sense ? Well that’s exactly how I felt . Nothing anyone said made any sense . It all just felt impossible . I’m brought back to reality by a man calling myname . My reality is me sitting in a small white room where it’s cold and empty and feeling of dread fills the air . My reality is in this waiting room waiting to see you one last time .

And like I said it feels impossible