xoxojennal
A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .
xoxojennal
A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .
A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .
A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .
I see a stranger that’s stranger than before
I see someone yearning, aching for more
I see someone scared, lost and alone
I see some searching and searching for home
…
A home that doesn’t exist
She’s banging on the glass with bloody fists
She’s mad , she’s wild .. she’s fucked up
She’s trapped , a prisoner, she is stuck
… staring at a image of herself
Wishing the the reflection would...
You loved me so fiercely that I burned
Now only ashes remain
Ashes blown by the wind, scattered
Like the glass of a broken picture frame
Empty , like somethings missing
Under your skin like something itching
A hole in a body that once was whole
A body with no core , it’s missing the soul
Who could’ve known that love could burn so deep
That it’d leave body body in ashes at your feet...
If wishes fell like rain , then certainly I am a storm
Falling from the sky I meet your skin where it is warm
I tap dance on the surface here to numb your pain
The drought is finally over , here comes your savior rain
And when all hope was gone and your river runs dry
When your on your knees begging to the sky
I’m an here to answer to be your saving grace
Just thank me when you feel my rain...
I knew this day would come
I’ve fought the urge to run
But here i am sinking in quicksand
Here I am a girl with no plan
But to get away ..
to leave the place I wanna stay
And I know it’s gonna break me
But I need to be set free
Before there’s nothing there
It’s not like I don’t care
I just need to get away
Or I won’t make it another day
…...
There’s this feeling of joy . It embraces me so tightly it feels like I might suffocate but I can’t bring myself to pull away . If I could burry myself deeper into it I would but I’m already fully submerged and it’s not enough . I yearn for more .There’s a feeling of warmth , It runs through my veins . It warms my center and extends to every nerve I have within . My stomach feels unsettled at the ...
My heart was still in my throat from when I got the call . The call that I would never forget. The call that told me you weren’t coming back … and as I sit here waiting I still can’t fully grasp it . Have you ever just shut down to the point where nothing makes any sense ? Well that’s exactly how I felt . Nothing anyone said made any sense . It all just felt impossible . I’m brought back to realit...
Emptiness is embracing me
The thought of fear is chasing me
And it wont go away
And that is what makes me wish you stayed
That is what kept my feet from movin and my head from thinking
That is what kept me from drowning flailing and sinking
But your not here anymore ..
My eyes are wet my heart is sore...