xoxojennal

A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .

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xoxojennal

A 25 year old hot mess who tries to balance not falling completely apart and living . . .

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Mirror Mirror

xoxojennal

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I see a stranger that’s stranger than before

I see someone yearning, aching for more

I see someone scared, lost and alone

I see some searching and searching for home

…

A home that doesn’t exist

She’s banging on the glass with bloody fists

She’s mad , she’s wild .. she’s fucked up

She’s trapped , a prisoner, she is stuck

… staring at a image of herself

Wishing the the reflection would...

Burning Love

xoxojennal

1 min read

You loved me so fiercely that I burned

Now only ashes remain

Ashes blown by the wind, scattered

Like the glass of a broken picture frame

Empty , like somethings missing

Under your skin like something itching

A hole in a body that once was whole

A body with no core , it’s missing the soul

Who could’ve known that love could burn so deep

That it’d leave body body in ashes at your feet...

Out Of Order

xoxojennal

1 min read

There’s a beeping that won’t stop

Reminds me of a tick tock tick tock

The outside is a little beat up

The insides definitely fucked

It’s making sounds that don’t sound right

There’s a light bulb that doesn’t light

But it’s still kicking

Hopefully the glue keep sticking...

Rain

xoxojennal

1 min read

If wishes fell like rain , then certainly I am a storm

Falling from the sky I meet your skin where it is warm

I tap dance on the surface here to numb your pain

The drought is finally over , here comes your savior rain

And when all hope was gone and your river runs dry

When your on your knees begging to the sky

I’m an here to answer to be your saving grace

Just thank me when you feel my rain...

Sinking

xoxojennal

1 min read

I knew this day would come

I’ve fought the urge to run

But here i am sinking in quicksand

Here I am a girl with no plan

But to get away ..

to leave the place I wanna stay

And I know it’s gonna break me

But I need to be set free

Before there’s nothing there

It’s not like I don’t care

I just need to get away

Or I won’t make it another day

…...

Dear Journal

xoxojennal

1 min read

There’s this feeling of joy . It embraces me so tightly it feels like I might suffocate but I can’t bring myself to pull away . If I could burry myself deeper into it I would but I’m already fully submerged and it’s not enough . I yearn for more .There’s a feeling of warmth , It runs through my veins . It warms my center and extends to every nerve I have within . My stomach feels unsettled at the ...

An Impossible Reality

xoxojennal

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My heart was still in my throat from when I got the call . The call that I would never forget. The call that told me you weren’t coming back … and as I sit here waiting I still can’t fully grasp it . Have you ever just shut down to the point where nothing makes any sense ? Well that’s exactly how I felt . Nothing anyone said made any sense . It all just felt impossible . I’m brought back to realit...

Without You …

xoxojennal

1 min read

Emptiness is embracing me

The thought of fear is chasing me

And it wont go away

And that is what makes me wish you stayed

That is what kept my feet from movin and my head from thinking

That is what kept me from drowning flailing and sinking

But your not here anymore ..

My eyes are wet my heart is sore...