If I Could Say Anything
You are so _beautiful_. Every part of you. The outside, the inside, and everything in between. Your green eyes, they're more than green. Green is too simple, too bland a word to use. Your eyes look like a forest, the sea, and the sun. So uniquely beautiful. I used to think your eyes were blue, but that was before I got lost in their depth. Before I _heard_ them. Now that I do, I see, feel, and understand so much more. I look in your eyes and I see everything, all that is true and good and beautiful. I look in your eyes and see myself, the parts of me I can't see on my own. The parts of me I deny. The _good_ parts of me. I look in your eyes and I feel safe. I feel known. I feel loved and in love. I feel the impossible become possible.
Your smile is, in all honesty, the _most_ beautiful thing I have ever had the honor to behold. Frankly, nothing compares. I search for it in everyone. I search for the way it makes me feel. I never find it. Not in anyone or anything else. Your smile is so much more than a smile. When you smile, at me, your whole face smiles. Your eyes come to laugh, dancing and singing all at once. Every single part of your face encompassed in a single smile. That is how I know it is genuine. And when you smile, there is nothing else in all the universe worth seeing. I see you smile and my world becomes whole again. The pieces fall into place and everything makes sense. Your smile brings me to life, like a breath of fresh air or the glimmer of sunlight on a rainy day. You smile and everything around you freezes. You are all I see.
Your voice. I long and wait for the sound of your voice every moment of everyday. Even in my dreams I search for it. My ears are always and forever open to it. The gentle cascade and tone of your voice. No one else can recreate it, and yet, I think I hear it when I don't because my mind is so completely fixed on you. The music within your voice, every word you say. I hope you know that I hear you. Every word. Every whisper. I can't help myself. Your voice is so utterly beautiful. It's a raging sea and a calm river all at once. It's a roar of fire and a soft ray of sunlight. It encapsulates every emotion like a reflection. It's what I miss most. The sound, the song, of your voice. I wonder if other people can hear the music I hear when you speak.
You laugh and my soul follows. The warmth and beauty of its sound streaming through my bones. You laugh and the world around us stops. Everything around you pales and blows away. You're all I see, all I hear, all I feel. When you laugh, I feel myself begin to smile for my heart longs to join you, to dance to the song of your laugh.
Now, I never expressly used the words "I love you," yet if all I confessed is true, I must. _I must. _