you never asked, but I’m not okay

after what you did to me?

I don’t know if I ever will be

I get it

I do

you realized I’m not who you thought I was

fine

I know it

I know I’m not pretty

I’m not that funny

nor smart

not popular

really awkward

kinda crazy

actually really crazy

but I don’t think I deserve what you did

I know it might not have felt like anything to you

but it did to me

and I still don’t understand

why you did it

what even happened

how could you

just change your mind like that

one day we were almost in love

the next you’re like

oops

sorry

don’t like you

didn’t wanna hurt you

so I lied

told you I did

but I didn’t

never did, never will

pfft

well

you just did so

it’s been forever since then

you probably haven’t thought about me in a while

but I think about it time to time

think about you

think about what it could’ve been like

if you weren’t a jerk

or maybe just an idiot

I’m not even sure

I don’t even know what happened

but I do know you ruined it

you ruined me

sure

I’ve liked guys after you

one of them was great

he’s nice

makes me laugh

we’re still friends

my feeling just faded away

as I fell for this one

oof

this one

he’s pretty

like really pretty

don’t know much about him

but he makes me heart jump

he makes me smile

just by being in the same room

you know

you used to do that

not anymore

now my smile fades away

whenever I see you

or hear your name

or think about you

think about what you did to me

you’re never gonna be sorry

that hurts

you hurt me

and you’ll never feel the pain

when I was crying because of you

you didn’t care

you maybe didn’t know

but you didn’t care

you didn’t even ask

no, you didn’t care

you never cared

after me you got an actual girlfriend

with the label

together for a year

and she dumped you

I’m guessing it was her

maybe she saw you for who you are

a jerk

an idiot

whatever it may be

I don’t care

I hate you all the same

hate what you did to me

hate you’ll never feel how I felt

you broke me

I hope she broke you too

it doesn’t look like it from the outside

but I hope you got a taste of pain

of what you did to me

I wish you felt that

I wish you were sorry

I know you don’t

you aren’t

but I wish you were

it just hurts

even after this long

you still hurt me

and I don’t think that pain

is ever gonna go away

you may have forgotten me

but I haven’t forgotten you

nor what you did to me

I hate you

what you did to me

it’s stupid

it just hurts