you asked if I’m okay and I said, “I’m fine, just tired.”
I could’ve told you everything but didn’t want to burden you—maybe that’s just the way I’m wired.
I turn down compliments; I’m not pretty, don’t say that, please.
I only cry at night when I’m alone; I can never fall asleep with ease.
I bite the hand that feeds me, so that maybe it’ll let me starve.
I think there’s just a hole in my hear...
looking out my window
seeing the leaves change color
the ones that used to be green
are no longer
now they’re red
and yellow
brown
and orange
a lot of orange
and as the leaves change
so do I
so do my feelings
I can quite understand it
I can’t quite tell you what I feel
but I know it’s a bit different than before
maybe I’ll go back to feeling the way I did
like the leaves will fall
but then be revi...
I’m mean
I’m mean and I’m bossy
I’m rude and I don’t care enough
not about you, not even about me
I just don’t care
I don’t put in effort into anything
because there’s no point anyways
we’re all just stupid little flecks
floating along in this stupid little universe
that doesn’t care about me
so why should I care about it?
why should I care about you?
I’m mean
I know
you’ve said it before
just shu...
if only I could do something
really do something
to help you
I’m sorry
I feel bad
but the best I can do is telling you
not to give up
keep on trying
I can only give you words of encouragement
the rest is up to you
I wish there’s was more I could do
if only I wasn’t so helpless
if only I could make things happen
if only I could do something to help you
I love you man
I hope you can do this
I know ...
_what. is. that._ the sight of it makes my heart beat faster, and I’m not sure if it’s in a good way or not. I look it up and down, letting out a shuddering breath. it looks like me. kind of. it has two eyes, a mouth and a nose. it has two arms, two feet, and a head with hair. its locks are cut short, however, but still long enough to see that its dark and a bit curly—it looks soft.
its eyes mee...
if only I had someone, if someone was mine
if only I could talk to them about anything, anytime
maybe I wouldn’t be here, writing these rhymes
what else can I do
when the only two people I can vent to
have problems of their own, too?
ugh I just need a man
but it’s not like I can
just go on over, tell him, “hey you, came and hold my hand”
“hold me in your arms until I stop crying”
“make me smile...
floating amongst the stars
the earth, saturn to mars
this universe is ours
endless space, endless time
all that is yours is mine
no way to hear their whines
drifting through galaxies
all my wants are past me
we have all that we need
we just simply exist
nothing to be missed
stars on my fingertips
this multiverse is vast
but you and I will last
among the stars, we dance
we’re kissed by the su...
it’s funny how
there was life before you
there was life before you ruined mine
there was good life before you broke me
I was looking through
old pictures
old videos
old memories from when I was younger
the smile
on that little girl’s face?
it was real
unlike the one I plaster on
most days now
you hadn’t ruined her
you hadn’t tore her apart
you hadn’t even met her
and she hadn’t met you
and eve...
when I see him I turn to mush, molten lava, a melted blob. he makes me weak, he makes my tummy feel funny and my hands tingle. I can imagine him hurting the people that have hurt me. I can imagine him getting furious when I don’t take care of myself. I can imagine him holding my hand and keeping the hair out of my face whenever I just need a good, long, cry. I can imagine him helping me through wh...