Living Through Dark Times
At age six I'd sleep with the lights on, afraid of the dark
My eyes darted at the front door
Couldn't really keep it steady
The darkened themes
Seemed to hunt me
What's lurking in the dark?
Ready to attack me once my eyes closed
I'd be frozen by the corner
A blanket to my neck
But it's okay,
I'm getting used to it
Cause darkness doesn't change
It only takes a flick of a switch
To chase it all away
A little bit older now
Life got a little colder
I had no blanket to keep me warm, no pillows to hold
Hiding in the corner
Like a kid again
Talking less
No friends to talk to
No one even knows me
No one even cares about the poems I write
So who do I tell about the dark
When I sleep alone
Born to stay in an empty room
But it's okay
I'm getting used to it
Cause darkness doesn't change
So it's not a problem
Unless the range of it grows
The darkness keeps on spreading
This time I'm in my twenties
Plenty of time to grow
You know, reach my full potential
Get a job, a stable home
I'm still in college though
But expecting the unexpected
I have a brother whose expecting to be a father sooner than predicted
His road shrouded in darkness
Will mine be next
But it's okay, he'll get through
He's got to, for the child in the womb
Cause darkness never changes
It's strange that it never changes
but affects me the same way
My dog was 6
She got sick one day and couldn't sleep
So we stayed awake with the lights on, afraid of the dark
Her eyes darted at the front door
I could tell she was ready
I wonder if I'll ever be
But it's okay
I ll get used to it
Cause darkness never changes