Sober headed

Too many nights of ambivalence 

Stricken by my scars 

Lifting heavy bells

To ease my scars 

Will I ever live or continue in agony?

For how long 

Will I continue to paint dark pictures 

For how long will i continue to 

Tint lucid resplendent moments 

For myself that will never exist 

Or will I just continue to foster my  ambiguities 

Till I become a victim of the 

Inescapable fate of all beings😔