i count,

1, 2, 3, 4, 5

5 what?

bodies?

deaths?

𝘙𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘵

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

no. that felt wrong,

again.

again,

5 numbers, 5 words,

5 images flash before my eyes,

5 deaths, 5 bodies,

blood, so

much blood

my hands,

blood

blood,

on my hands, in my heart,

inside and

out,

blood.

i hold the knife, i want to save them, i want to save them and i cant, i

count,

5, 5, 5,

it feels wrong,

i can make it right,

if i say it

right, i can make it

right?

again, again, again,

there is blood on my hands,

if i say it right

enough

will they live?