(Probably a bit short but I can always add to it later down the line)

The first sensation I can ever feel and it is cold? Surely I could’ve got a better feeling like that. Apparently being warm is nice, but being tired is bad. This is all new to me, I’m young compared to my friends by all accounts so they have been feeling for months more than me, its finally my turn.

At least it wasn’t heartbreak, Alex got heartbreak and he has never been the same since. If the cold means I can stay sane then I am all for being cold. If I’m cold, I can go and sit by the fire, if I’m heartbroken thats a lot harder to fix.

Sitting in the garden fixes my problem of being cold and gives me a glimpse of hope that this will be good, its still the first day after all. There is one thing I am hoping to avoid though, pain.

Pain comes and goes too much, pain is basically a constant, it just depends how hard it hits

- Cal :)