Sometimes the only way to really forget everything is to go to sleep.

So that’s what I do.

I do it to forget the scars, to forget my dad, to forget my mom, to forget Levi. But most of all, to forget Rosa.

I miss her so much, but I also kind of hate her for leaving me, I know that makes me selfish and I know that she had to leave, but it still hurts. It hurts so badly.

Tonight I can’t fall asleep, and I know why. 5 years ago exactly, Rosa left me. I thought maybe she’d come back, but she never did. I was stupid.

Maybe I should just move on and forget about her, like she did.

Maybe I will….

But I can’t. No matter how hard I try, Rosa will always be a part of me, like it or not.

I wish you were here Rosa.