A dreamer | Writing a book | she/her | Always open to feedback | things will get better, I promise. Song of the week: Buttercup by Jack Stauber
A dreamer | Writing a book | she/her | Always open to feedback | things will get better, I promise. Song of the week: Buttercup by Jack Stauber
In the deepest corners of the internet
I hide in obscure apps
Websites
Games
You’ll never know me until
You do
And at that point you’ll already
Know everything about me
Or I’ll just be another name.
I am never going back
So when the internet crashes
And the hackers crack
code that has
the facts to hack.
I’ll be homebound
No longer down
In
The lost and found
I’ll get up from bed
And start speaki...
the beauty in that moment right
before
the end.
right before
the beginning.
right before the
i love you.
part
and the
i hate you.
part
right before
i’m fine
a million words are spoken in that moment before,
yet none are really expressed,
and they never will be.
I’ve only ever heard mentions of the after.
How they react,
What you deci...
(This took so long lol sry about that.)
_Nova walks along the pathway, a bridge across the ocean. Her brother is up ahead and she begins to run. “Nova?” Raindrop says with a hopeful smile and a light in his eyes._
_But then he begins to cry and the smile drops. Nova realizes his wings are torn and suddenly he’s much taller than her, or maybe she’s suddenly shrunk, and he’s looking down in anger ...
(tw: self harm)
My favorite artwork is the one on my legs
My thighs
One I never get bored of
I keep adding more to it
When one stroke disappears I add another
And another
And another
It’ll be the easiest to hide in the summer.
I don’t have to wear hoodies that my mom asks me
Aren’t you too hot in that?
Whenever I make a mistake
I revisit this tapestry
And add to it
It’s comforting
In a way.
When...
A dancing string of words
Speaking and thinking
And singing and screaming
Unintelligible words
Words that fly
Above the high
You get from continuously
Hating yourself
But still past your ears
Into a void
A solemn empty space
A blank masked face
Eyes hidden under curtains of shadow
You don’t look up so you don’t know
The true sentence intentions
Behind the inventions
You broke yourself into pie...
It’s so hot
Sometimes
The sun blazes on my back
Sometimes
My legs stall for a moment
Sometimes
I consider just resting for the rest of my short life
I’m so tired
Always
My numb legs trudge on and on
Always
Water is a treasured gift
Always
The terrifying dunes loom ahead of me
And
Never
Do I stop
Never
Do I let the treacherous sand betray me
Never
Because if I walk far enough maybe someday I’ll e...
(Made this a loooonnnnggggg time ago lol don’t know why I never posted it til now.)
Never trust a survivor
until you know
what they did to survive
Where have you been,
Friend..?
Falling
Down
D o w n
d
o
w
n
again.
Bitter lemons caress my eyes
As I lie awake
In sweet silence
You seem…
Fine. But different.
Changed.
For the better? I have yet to find out
Are you truly
Alive, st...
Birds fly above our heads
Birds sleep in our beds
I see birds soaring
Flying above to a place that we hope is near
Leading us here and there and everywhere
Feathers trail behind their bright wings
We follow the birds
To places unheard
And places unseen
The birds represent our hopes and dreams
Our freedoms and hearts and the little things
That help us get up in the morning....
(TW: sh)
This is a good thing
I am here
And I am happy
I am a
Good
Person
.
I shouldn’t hurt myself anymore
This is a _good_ thing
I am here
And I am… happy
I am a
Good
Person.
But before you can blink
It’s gone
And it was something
I am here now
And I am
I…
Am…
I held it again
I said I fucking wouldn’t
And I held the blade to my skin again
And today I cut over and over I had to force myself...