You leave me worthless and I am calm

You leave me wounded when I did you no harm

I am calm because I now know that I am strong

I now know that you are selfish and incapable of love

You are incapable of giving anything at all

You leave me alone because with you I feel alone

I am learning to say no because it is yes to me

It is the yes that i can be free from all the pain that you gave me

If it hurts you so bad then you can be as mad as you want but I won’t be another clown showing up to your circus of baggage

I refuse to be a doormat to you, i refuse to be worthless depending my joy from a man at that

I refuse to sit still and wait for you, i refuse to sit still and be what you want me to be because that’s not what i am meant to be.

I refuse to pretend that I’m happy all the time, i refuse to follow trends, i refuse to fit in when i was born to stand out, i refuse to show off when i have nothing to show but my bruises

I refuse to be worthless because of you but i chose to be worthy because I can because i am