Did you notice that I’m gone? That recently I don’t reply so much when you call? That you all have fun and get out there, And I’m reading alone in my room Even though I used to be the first to respond? My therapist doesn’t want me to isolate She says that will just make me feel worse After all I’m a social butterfly But flapping my wings right now hurts I don’t have the energy to be around them right now And it’s not because they’re a lot It’s because I’m too sad and tired to pretend I’m okay when I’m not I just want someone who’s not family or therapist to understand But they don’t get it So I can’t talk to my friends about that And I’m not really alone I have my mom and my dad and I’m grateful for that Because they’re what help me tolerate it Except you can’t really tolerate it And accept it and move on Because when I’m crazy upset I don’t want to be around other people I don’t want to be seen like that I want to be alone in my agony Even if I feel better when someone sits down there with me