can you lose what you’ve never had?

i sit and watch, stare,

she braids her hair,

nimble fingers twist and turn,

and i wonder;

can you lose what you’ve never had?

can you lose what you’ve never had?

i stand and stare, gaze,

freshly painted nails graze,

wondering fingers scratch and skim,

and i wonder;

can you lose what you’ve never had?

can you lose what you’ve never had?

i lie and gaze, cry,

they into secrets pry,

petty laughter skips and sings,

and i wonder;

can you lose what you’ve never had?

can you lose what you’ve never had?

i curl up and cry, weep,

each other secrets they keep,

sealed lips will never speak,

and i wonder;

can you lose what you’ve never had?

can you lose what you’ve never had?

i kneel and weep, sob,

while they’re hearts are full mine does throb,

for the life i don’t have,

for the friends i never made,

for the boys i’ll never gossip about,

for the normalcy i crave,

i sob,

and i wonder;

can you lose what you’ve never had?