oh, when I look at you

how my heart starts beating faster

it’s funny how I don’t notice the quiet thump

until you’re by my side

and it’s louder and beats harder

than any other ordinary day

it’s always there

but goes unnoticed

but oh, when you’re close to me

at this rate,

you could probably hear it from there

sitting there,

oh so close

you look at me, talk to me

my brain stops

so does the beat of my heart

I forget about it

about everything else

the only thing on my mind

and in my heart

is you

you

you

you

oh, and when you talk to me

I’m never quite sure what I say

I don’t remember if I’ve ever said anything at all

it all goes black

and there’s just you

your face

your voice

I don’t think I even pay attention

to the words you said

too lost in those beautiful eyes

to think about anything else

I don’t know why

but everything else is irrelevant around you

oh and then you look away

or I do, too shy to maintain eye contact

and you stop talking to me

start talking to her or him or no one

you get up and leave the room

that’s when time starts again

I sit there, wondering, what just happened?

what did I say?

what did you even say?

the only thing I ever remember

is how I felt

how you made me feel

how my heart beat louder and louder

and then it went away

how my brain stopped working

how my worries fluttered away

the only thing on my mind was

you

and as I think about this

I notice my heartbeat again

faster

harder

like I’m falling

scared I’ll never land

hoping I do, and soon

hoping I land in your arms

see your face

lock eyes

and everything stops all over again

my heart

my mind

there’s nothing else

just me with

you