I wasnt sure how to explain what was goin on in my head

I didnt know how to tell you

That some days i felt so overwhelmingly numb

And without warning or explanation

I just felt nothing

It’s insane how your mind can feel like its constanly going 100 miles per hour

And yet you still feel so mind numbingly empty

I thought they would tell me its all in my head

The same way i was told i was too old to cry as a child

And the same way

I invalidated my own feelings when i grew up

I didnt know that it could be healing

To open up to someone about your feelings

And instead of being judged or faced with unwanted opinions,

They say, “ you really feel that way too? I thought i was alone”

In that moment it is so comforting to know you are not alone,

But that moment of comfort is fleeting

Because now you know you are not alone

In this crazy, long battle with your mind,

But now you know someone you care about

Is going through the same constant numbing fight in their head too.