I can say that I’ve lived a decent life One filled with both laughter and tears. , I’ve experienced the sun, the rain, and everything in between I have been tried and tested I have loved and i have lost, But lately the losses outweigh the love, The sun, too often turned into storms And it has been too long since we’ve laughed So i am laying down, Prepared to succumb to my injuries, Ready to rest
When i go, do not be sad, Because i will not leave you, I will be the sun dancing between the clouds, Shining down, so you may never know my darkness, I will be the butterfly that sticks around for a moment, So you may be a little less lonely, I will be the moss on the forest floor, Resting among the trees in hopes you may join me, Finally at peace, Allowed to simply be
Her Sunshine Glowing like honey, The sweetest known Days with her, warm and sunny, Those around her tend to grow
She lived among the stars,
Not hers to see,
Never too far,
They did not shine as bright as she
She longed for the stars, And the life they provide, But when she was around, They all seemed to hide
She was the sun, The warmth in the sky, The bringer of fun, never questioning why, Until now you see, She never asked if it was the sun she wanted to be.
Just a moment, Fleeting, Yet holding on to time
It slipped my mind The thought of you Your existence It seized to hold space For a fleeting Time consuming moment I forgot
And you will never forget again Never laugh Never cry Never smile Never party Again. Never be alive Feel life Again.
How selfish To forget As if there will ever be a time That pink skies do not make me think of you A time when the word “hunny” Does not enrage a feeling of melancholy So bitter For it is the word you shared for each other It is the word that made her smile When you left You took her smile with you, Still breathing, Pieces of her lying with you Her world shattering When yours ended And i forgot… For a fleeting, Time consuming moment You slipped my mind
Work, Eat, Sleep, repeat, Repeat, Retreat, Take a seat
Follow the line, It will not lead you a stray, This is the path You’ve been told, don’t look away, This is the way to a better life you see, Commonly travelled, long before you and me, Not the one you want, the one we tell you, you need, Follow me, we will show you where you are meant to be,
Work, Eat, Sleep, Repeat, Repeat, Repeat, Retreat, It is not time to take a seat,
Don’t be afraid, I promise now, That feeling in your stomach, Will let you down, Please, don’t let us see you frown, We don’t like to hear the screams Follow the line Don’t you see, This is the city Of your dreams
Magical days never wasted A bright world ready to embrace us Happiness lingers in the spaces between What has happened and what has yet to be seen Never allowing fear to lead us astray Instead we continue on our own way Afraid but staying true To the dreams that complete you
Quite the contrary indeed expectations not exactly exceeded From sweet to bitter Days seem to dull any glitter Time moves on And so we carry on
Mundane days slipping through calloused fingers Worn out daydreams linger Muffled screams barely escaping Over the consistent sounds of another soul breaking Barely scraping by How did we not notice how fast the time fly’s? Surely there’s time before all dreams die?
I sink deeper in the sheets, Not concerned with what exists beyond me For right now, This is where i need to be
Theres a special place in my soul, For the comfy blankets and the pillows In the dimly lit spaces I could never let go Of the way that they embrace us
The longer i spend In theses places, The harder it is To leave their cages
When i do break free I seem to land on my knees They say you need to crawl before you walk And it may take a while for you to talk
For all you hear, Is that place You have tried so hard to erase Reaching out its arm, Claiming to cause you no harm
You pass it by, And wonder why You ever left
After all, It came to say They would like you to stay
It even made spaces For all the ways You knew you werent okay
And deep down you know that you could Never let go Of the dimly lit spaces And the way that they embrace us
If i count the ways i love you Maybe then you’ll see it too The way you glow and shine As if its just the job thats meant for you
If i count the ways i love you, Maybe you’ll see how much i do, When i say im lucky to call you mine You just might know its true
If i count the ways i love you Id be counting for a while If written on a peice of paper That sheet would run about a mile
If i could count the ways i love you It might just make you smile The list is getting longer dear I will have to make a pile
That day, they decided to go to Dufferin Islands; A small area with little ponds, and islands, and many many ducks. It was a cool fall day, and all of the ducks had gathered in one area, in a small pond just off to the side of a little island. It was a small little island, only about 30. feet wide. They crossed the bridge and pulled out the bread. Jenny went to the edge of the island while her little sister Maria, her big suster Anna, and her friend stayed close to the bridge.
Jenny loved to feed the ducks, and was very serious about making sure every duck got a bite. Jenny leaned over the edge, reaching as far as she could to feed the last duck. Standing on her tip toes and holding on to a nearby tree to accomplish her goal. Unfortunately he was just out of reach for little jenny. She leaned in a little too far and “SPLASH!”. Before she knew what happened she was in the water.
Her little sister, maria, had moved a little closer. She stood there, In disbelief, unable move. Jenny came up from the water, disoriented. She grabbed on to the edge of the island. Jenny wiggled her feet, trying to hold on to the edge , the water too deep for her to touch the bottom. The edge of the little island was covered in wire, forcing Jenny to keep a small distance between her and the grass. The edge of the island was only a few inches thick before it folded in underneath itself. Jenny struggled to hold onto the edge, without letting her feet go infront of her and under the island, and without scraping her arms on the wire. Barely able to keep herself above the water, pulling herself out was not an option.
She looked at her sister in relief. “Maria, go get Ana” whispered Jenny breathlessly. “Maria please i cant get out! What is wrong with you?” Standing there, frozen, maria didnt say a word and continued to stare blankly at jenny. Jenny’s eyes grew wide, realizing that maria wasnt going to be able to get help and that she had to do it herself.
Their older sister, Anna, was just out of sight, standing behind some trees. Distracted by her friends, she was completely oblivious to what had happened. Jenny could barely see Anna as the trees were blocking her face. Jenny, tried speaking again, now tired and cold. She was only able to let out a whisper. She stopped moving her legs long enough to catch a breathe and yell. She mannaged to say “Anna!” at a volume her sister could hear. “Just a minute!” Yelled anna withought looking in her sisters direction. “You have got to be kidding me” Jenny thought to herself. She took a deep breathe and prepared to try again. Jenny kicked a few more times to stay afloat and stoped once more to yell again. “Anna please” she said with desperation. Getting tired, she knew she couldnt say another word. Anna cocked her head in her sisters direction. When her eyes landed on Jenny she let out a gasp before her and her friend sprinted over.
Carefully, they lifted her up and out of the pond. They gave her a jacket and Anna rubbed her hands up and down jennys arms at an attempt to warm her up and stop her from shaking. Her pants were torn and her knees visible, only a couple of scrapes. Jenny wasnt really hurt but she was a little shaken up. Anna hugged her and ask her how she ended up in the pond. Jenny began to explain what had happened. Everyone, except for maria, tried their best to hide their laughter. Maria couldnt hold hers in and didnt see the point in doing so. Jenny didnt seem to think it funny. Anna asked maria why she didnt come get her for help. Maria, not completely understanding this herself, tried to explain.”it was like someone had pushed the pause button on me or something” she said, “i couldnt move and i coulnt speak, but i couldnt look away either”. “I wanted to come get you but i couldnt! I promise im telling the truth!”. She said sincerely, begging to be beleived. Not compeltely understanding it.
They warmed Jenny up a little bit more and headed back home on their bikes ; Stopping for hot chocolate on the way. Once they started riding, Jenny wasnt so cold anymore and her teeth stopped chattering.
The whole situation played in her head many times on the ride home. One question continued to bother her, and it was one she would never know the answer to:
Did the duck manage to get the peice of bread?
Written by the girl who fell in. :)
I wasnt sure how to explain what was goin on in my head I didnt know how to tell you That some days i felt so overwhelmingly numb And without warning or explanation I just felt nothing It’s insane how your mind can feel like its constanly going 100 miles per hour And yet you still feel so mind numbingly empty
I thought they would tell me its all in my head The same way i was told i was too old to cry as a child And the same way I invalidated my own feelings when i grew up
I didnt know that it could be healing To open up to someone about your feelings And instead of being judged or faced with unwanted opinions, They say, “ you really feel that way too? I thought i was alone”
In that moment it is so comforting to know you are not alone, But that moment of comfort is fleeting Because now you know you are not alone In this crazy, long battle with your mind, But now you know someone you care about Is going through the same constant numbing fight in their head too.
As i look at the dust covered glass, i focus on the person on the other side. Her eyes catch the light, hints of green and gold stare back at me. Distinct from one another, but collectively drawing me in. Intrigued, i look further. I see how her nose scrunches when shes thinking or dislikes something. I take notice of her smile, how she lights up when shes truly happy. Her dimples, littler craters embedded in her cheeks, renduring her smile more evident. Peculiar, how you can look in the mirror every day and find something different every single time.