“Oh my goodness not again, you aren’t trying to leave the house again are you?”

“Shut up,” I tell my anxious self, “I have to leave the house to get groceries!”

“No you don’t, you can just order delivery. You know you love that Instacart! So easy, you can stay in bed while grocery shopping!”

“No! I can’t keep doing that! I need to go out, feel the sunshine, talk to people, walk around. You know like a normal person.” I grumble.

“But why? Your bed is so comfy, your house is bright enough with lights on. Outside is scary and people are mean. You don’t want to deal with the crazies do you?”

“Oh come on nothing will happen to me! I use to go out all the time remember? We had some fun back in the old days! Clubs, subways, grocery stores, random walks in the park, and constantly socializing, you remember that don’t you?”

“That was so long ago tho, it’s different now. You don’t want to talk to anyone, what for? It’s not like you’re going to hang out with them anyways. Plus, being alone at home is so comforting, better than the old days right?”

I think hard for a minute, then respond, “ you are absolutely wrong, I miss the old me. I miss the me when you weren’t around.”

I shut my mind down and walk out the door. Hello world, I’m back!