I wish I had never let go

I wish I had never let my old self slip out of my fingertips

I never knew losing yourself could be so easy

Could happen so fast

I have to try to convince myself that this new version of me will be better

That I’m healing

Becoming a new person

A better person

And I do try

I try and be the person who

“Always smiles” like I used to be

But no matter what I do

No matter how far I travel within my mind

I can never find that person

Through the depths of my darkest thoughts

The endless trail of memories I can never forget

Grief changed me

And I don’t think I’ll ever get that girl back