I look into the depths, collecting myself.

I will be fine.

Fine.

Fine fine fine fine fine.

Who am I kidding?

This is NOT fine

This is the opposite of fine actually

This is the furthest from fine anything could possibly be.

I take a few deep breaths trying to calm my frenetic heart. Ok I can do this. It’s just a little bit of water. It can’t hurt me…

But it can.

And it has.

I can’t do this.

I can’t do this?

Since when am I so afraid of something that I won’t do it?

This is pathetic.

I’m pathetic.

Come on just jump in.

You can’t stop your self if your already jumping.

I’ve jumped off moving planes before this should be easy.

Yep really easy.

Then why aren’t I moving?

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

Jump.

JUMP.

Wow this was an awful idea